Monday, July 16, 2018

Abundance

Sunrise at Starry Meadows
My word for 2018 is 'abundance.' I had completely forgotten! Now, remembering, I ponder my word choice.
Spring brought an abundance of rain; so much so we had a flooded lane for two months. Then came an abundance of mosquitoes and gnats. And weeds. We lost an abundance of trees, and hundreds of new saplings are rising in their place. I received an abundance of rejections so far this year. Abrupt ends to projects and job rejections. On the other hand, a beautiful, black bear and a tiny hummingbird have been showing themselves to me, with regularity. Bears symbolize strength and courage. Hummingbird symbolism is about lightness of being, enjoyment of life, being more present, bringing in playfulness and lifting up negativity.

Neighbor's photo of the bear in his yard
I saw the bear again yesterday, about 20yards ahead of where my husband and I were walking the dogs at the edge of the woods. This morning, as I sat ruminating on the following poem, a hummingbird flew right in front of me, hovering in the air, cocking its head left and right, looking me right in the eyes. The beauty and significance brought tears to my eyes.

2018 has been a challenging year. On world, country and personal fronts. Personally, I've experienced difficulties, rejection, loss of dreams. I smile remembering our move here, how we dreamed freely and were so positive about everything. Dreams take work, don't they? One needs bear-like courage and strength tempered with not taking oneself or one's dream too seriously. Laughing and playing help!
Ruby Throated Hummingbird - female- at Starry Meadows
I don't know about you but I struggle with the word 'abundance' especially when it's used in prosperity gospel teachings and even when it's used in general spirituality. I invite you to meditate with me on this poem by Saint Catherine of Siena. A surprising and beautiful woman of the 1300's offers us this surprising and beautiful poem.


THIS PLACE OF ABUNDANCE
We know nothing until we know everything.
I have no object to defend
for all is of equal value
to me.
I cannot lose anything in this
place of abundance
I found.
If something my heart cherishes
is taken away,
I just say, "Lord, what
happened?"
And a hundred more appear.